My regrets: I was a fool to.....

Another falling out... I really don't understand. Seriously, I don't. I'm through with all this....Now I don't even feel like sharing my latest Understanding of the CCC episodes to YouTube now.
I have been deliberating since late Wednesday Night, didn't want to do it but I'm gonna come clean yet again right now.

- I was a fool to follow down the path of a musician which has led me nowhere after almost 20 years experience and nobody save a very small few knows or cares of how freaking much I've been through.

- I was a fool to have joined my ministry and still have been a practice target after all these years.

- I was a fool to have gone to Ping Yi Secondary rather than Maris Stella High (Secondary) after they accepted my appeal after PSLE, ended up being a fucking punching bag despite futile efforts by the staff of the school to put a stop to all this.

- I was a fool to do more than a fair share of my workload in National Service while the most of my other colleagues does nothing.

- I was a fool to even have an older brother treating me as a punching bag.

- And the worst of it all, I was a fool to even have been born suffering much with a Mental Problem.


and above all, nobody fucking gives a shit.



Honestly, this is the thanks I get? What in heavens name did I ever do to deserve this....I'm tired man... real tired and ultimately,

I've been a fool for the whole 23+ years of my existence that's not entirely my fault.


Signing out,
GM Paul

My Desktop PC upgrading? : Should I... or Should I not?

Well, I am contemplating whether to upgrade my Desktop PC again because the main thing that's pulling me back is the Mechanical Drive. An SSD would be nice but there's more which I'll share later on.

Now I went back to the VRZone forums to see whether I can get a decent SSD at these rates:
100 bucks for ~ 120GB models
200 bucks for ~250GB ones.

Now Ordway who dealt me the PNY GTX 680 has offered me these options he is trying to clear out so I'm contemplating which one is great for the money. I've known Ordway, I dealt the GTX 680 and he's pretty much no frills, no disappoint, damn on the ball seller who has the support of many a fellow forum member.

OK! Here's what he has and which should I pick? (Copy and pasted directly from his PM to me)

Adata 128GB SX900 128GB - $110 (Local with 2 years warranty left)
Vertex 4 128GB - $100 (non local)
Crucial Micron C300 128GB - $95 (non local)
Intel 520 120GB - Top Tier SSD with 4 years + warranty left - $130
Corsair GT 240GB - $220 (Local with 2 years warranty left)

Pretty neat selection eh? Which one you think I should get?

OK. Next bit, I'm thinking whether I should swap out my GTX 680 for Ordway's (Last) Pair of MSI Power Edition GTX 670s. It comes with the Twin Frozr IV cooling so well loved. If I consider it, it'll be my 2nd and 3rd Cards from MSI. I believe the top-up would be around 300+. So I wonder whether it's worth the price.